Sunday, September 09, 2007


I can't believe we are starting our second week of fourth grade today! Shane is loving all of his curriculum, SO FAR!!! I pray that continues. He received a 100% on his first Spelling Test Friday and only missed one problem on his math quiz!

Friends, once again, I would like to ask for your prayers. I've learned that you ladies (and few men) who read my blog, are people of prayer, so I present to you my next challenge.

I really should have shared this with you last Monday, the day I had to stop my medications for the Rheumatoid Arthritis. You see, this Tuesday, ( 9/11 ), I will be having a breast biopsy done. My meds can cause free bleeding, so for apparent reasons, I was told to discontinue them the week before the biopsy. I also had to discontinue my daily vitamin, due to it containing vitamin E, which can also cause bleeding.

Many of you probably remember that back in Nov. through May, I was in terrible pain and hardly slept at all. My old meds were no longer working for me. I turned to blogging as an escape from pain. I'd be up all hours of the night suffering. Thus, the title of my blog "MIDNIGHT MUSINGS".

Needless to say, without my anti-inflammatory and pain meds, I don't function well. The first day off of them this week, I must admit I was A-OK, but by Wednesday, I felt like I was in a full blown withdrawal. I had the chills and shakes and felt so weak. My joints began hurting and I was seeing joints swell up right before my very eyes! I couldn't concentrate and my speech was slurred; and all this while trying to get through the first week of homeschool with Shane. Oh, and did I mention I was really GRUMPY??? With the Lord's help, we did meet most of our schooling goals for the week. I know it was due to my church family and my dad's church family praying for me. I am some better now. What a sweet blessing to know that other's can approach my Heavenly Father on my behalf! It seems the withdrawal stage is over but I feel as though I have the flu and some joints are achy each day, and you guessed it -- I CAN'T SLEEP! I know this is only temporary. I was instructed to start my meds back up a few days after the biopsy, so I'm thinking around Friday.

A little sample of my swelling! and oh the pain in that middle finger especially!

NOW, what I would seek your prayers for right now is for me to get through one more week with minimal pain. Also that the biopsy goes well and the growth isn't malignant. God's will be done!

The Leonard family picked Shane up for S.S. and church Sunday morning. Agustin was at work, I was in pain! When they brought Shane home after services, they also brought 3 delicious pizzas and 3 different types of sodas! YUM! I had never tried Papa John's Barbecue Pizza.

It was awesome and we all highly suggest it! Thanks Kim and Mike, Alex, and Ashley for being such a blessing! I also enjoyed their company as it helped get my mind off of me for an hour or so. Of course, since Mike was here, I got plenty of laughing in!!!

Here's Mike on New Year's Eve, 2006. No it's not what you think! The guy IS NOT drunk! The adornment of the little flashlight on his head was assisting him in his quest to find one of the girl's missing pieces of jewelry, which was lost while we were in the yard setting off fireworks.


justabeachkat said...

I put your biopsy on my calendar and I'll be praying for you. Also for your pain. Hang in there! You'll be in my thoughts too.

Extra Hugs!

Penless Thoughts said...

Praying for you Pam.

Sallie said...

I will write down about your biopsy so I can pray. I'll start praying now for your swelling and pain.

Church friends are the best, aren't they!

I'm visiting from Monday Meanderings. Have a blessed week!

God bless,

Jungle Mom said...

I am so sorry you are hurting!!! paying.

Tiany said...

Pam I am so sorry to hear about the troubles you have had recently, I will be praying for everything to go smoothly with the biopsy , for the pain to subside , for the swelling to go down , for complete and total healing, for rest and comfort!

Your on my mind and in my prayers!!!
I love ya!!!


Mrs.B said...


I pray that everything goes well tomorrow and I'm sorry you're in such pain. My grandmother had rheumatoid arthritis and I remember how much pain she was always in.

Oh and the reason you couldn't comment on my blog was because my comments were off while I was on vacation. They're back on now!


Webutante said...

Pam, I'm so sorry to hear of your pain and suffering.

justabeachkat said...


You're in my thoughts and prayers tonight.

Here's some bible verses that really helped me. I hope they will comfort you too.

Psalm 56:3
What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee.

Psalm 56:3-4
When I am afraid, I will trust in you. In God, whose word I praise, in God I trust, I will not be afraid.

Isaiah 41:10
So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

Isaiah 48:16
The Lord says, “At the time it happens, I am there.”

Extra hugs!

Kelli said...

I will be praying for you, Pam. I feel so sad seeing the picture of your hand. ((((hugs)))


Frazzled Farm Wife said...

Hoping your biopsy goes well and will be praying that your pain is minimal during this tough time!

HsKubes said...

Lifting you up in prayer, Pam.

~ Christina

Michelle-ozark crafter said...

I will be praying for you and I will add you to my prayer group as well. I just came across your blog by chance and now I believe it was what hubby and I call a God-incedence! He meant for me to find and pray for you!

Anonymous said...

You are in my prayers every day! I do hope that your doctor took you off your meds gradually. That's normally how you come off strong steroids. Will pray about your biopsy too. Praise God for His grace.

Pam said...

Lovvom, I wasn't on steroid this time, just strong anti inflammatories. I still think I should have gradually downed my dosage though after what I went through!! Thanks for your concern!

Anonymous said...

((( you )))

I'm so sorry you suffer from RA. A dear friend of mine here in California suffers as well. When I think of Sue I'll also think of you and pray for you both.

I'll pray about the biopsy, yes. Had one 15 years ago, then a lumpectomy..benign, praise God. Yes, I'll pray.

Mishel said...

Sweet Pam,

I am praying! I had put it on my calendar when you left your comment on my blog last week. And I will pray for the situation with your meds too. Thank you friend, for your prayers for me...and now I lift *you* up to the Lord. Hugs to you!


Pam, I will pray for your pain and the biopsy you will be having. I think that was when I first met you on the computer one night after midnight and I came visiting you when I had gout. I have no doubt the Lord will take care of you. God bless my friend. connie from Texas

Daughter of the King said...

oh Pam..I am so sorry that you are in such pain....for someone who KNOWS pain...I hurt more for you...I have had a rough couple of nights...and I know how it affects the *grumpies* is just the exhaustion....praying that the Lord will be your strength

Jackie said...

I've been praying all day...hope to hear from you soon. Love you soooooooooo much it hurts! wish I was there to help.

Abouna said...

You most certainly do have my prayers.And may our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ keep you ever in the love and warmth of His out-stretched arms.

Baptist Girl said...

Dear Pam,
I will being holding you up in prayer for the biopsy and for your Arthritis....and yet you keep you spirits us, you continue to show you love and care for others
you are such a blessing from the Lord. Your such a special lady.
You take real good care of yourself, maybe slow down a bit sometimes..sit down kick back once in awhile.

Love and Hugs to you Pam