Saturday, May 08, 2010

Some Thoughts

Hi dear friends here in Blog land. I've missed you more than words can express. Something strange seems to have been afoot in my life and so many things have changed in the past eight months. I have peeked in on some of your blogs a bit here and there and each time I did, it drew me back into the world of blogging for a bit.

I am on Face book almost daily due to that being the favorite mode of many of my relatives and my recently rediscovered friends from the past. I always loved blogging, but never have met most of you. I read and enjoy your blogs and feel connected to you but it's a different type of relationship. I also found that Face book was a means of escape for me while coping with my husband's depression. You may remember he resigned from a job he loved and was great at (due to a very ugly situation). After two months of being unemployed, he began struggling with chronic insomnia. He was hired on with a new company, but continued to suffer with insomnia, which then impaired him from being able to concentrate or function at full capacity. Can you imagine starting a new job, wanting to make a good impression on your new boss and co-workers, but without having slept for weeks? Thankfully, he endured and proved himself . He now has adjusted to a slower store and less employees but he has made his mark. After returning from a week of vacation last week, he was greeted with open armed hugs and remarks about how it just wasn't the same there when he wasn't around. His coworkers have seen his strengths and appreciate the confidence and security he adds to the work place. As he gets stronger, I do too. We are both very different people than we were some eight months ago.

Happily, I can report that we have made some wonderful memories in the past few months. It hasn't all been negative. Many social functions and extra family in town have helped my husband and I on our road to healing. But I honestly know it was the prayer support of loved ones and friends that got us through. Times when in a natural state I would have wanted to panic or run away, I felt a calmness. I literally felt the presence of God keeping me calm and strong when I needed to be those things. It was extremely sad watching my husband go through the most difficult time of his life. He lost 22 pounds in two months. He could only sleep fifteen or twenty minutes at a time. He was miserable! The lack of sleep of course was causing other, more serious problems. I was amazed at how my strength came right from the Lord. Both Agustin and I are so relieved that we are now adjusted to our new lives. Some things are actually better than they were before the biggest challenge of our lives.


I thought I'd share some photos and videos here to highlight some of our ups and downs so far this year.


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New Year's Eve was spent in the emergency room! Exciting huh? Agustin had been having chest pains, but when they intensified, he left work and asked me to drive him to the hospital. Thank the Lord, it was not a heart attack, but assumed to be panic attacks. As I said before, his lack of sleeping caused other health issues. It was strange for me to see my strong, active husband in a fragile state. He had never been hospitalized before.

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We've had my niece Jackie and her family in the area since March. My niece 's little girls have fallen in love with Shane! We've fallen head over heels in love with them.

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We went on a week long beach vacation!
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My niece Jackie gave birth to our Lexi!
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My Aunt Carol came down to visit with us.


Mom, Shane, and I took the girlies for their first trip to Busch Gardens!
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In this 40 second video, Elena talks about how excited she is to be going back to Paraguay! As a missionary child, she was counting down the weeks by counting how many more churches they had to visit before their departure.

(This was taped about a month ago. They leave us on Monday.)



6 comments:

MightyMom said...

glad to see you posting girl.

remember, our moments of biggest growth come right after our moments of biggest trial.

:-) oh and every drought ends in a flood.

;-)

Susan said...

Good to see a post from you, Pam. Thanks for your testimony of the faithfulness of God in the midst of your struggles. HE always is!!!! Happy Mother's Day my friend.

jAne said...

I had no idea your family was experiencing such a challenge, Pam. Praying that your dear husband's healing would be whole and that all glory would go to our Lord. I'm praying. <><

It's during these deep valleys that we grow, hm? I know that to be true in my own life.

Bless you dearly,
jAne

Mrs. C said...

Yay! You're posting again! Things sound like they're looking up. :)

Betty said...

I love that little video at the end. I´m sure you will miss your nieces so much!
I´m glad your husband is doing better. Thanks for letting us in on what was going on with you in the last months. I noticed you were posting less, and hope that you are back now. :)

Amber said...

Wow! I really love what you've done with your blog! It's been a while since I've been able to stop by. Hopefully I can peek in again soon. ;)